Today I walked in on the two year old I watch struggling to stick a blanket up over a window full of light. I instantly offered to close the blinds for him and moved to do so. He instantly broke down crying and stuck up his arms to protect his window from me. I asked him why we shouldn’t close the blinds if he wanted to keep the light out. His reply, between panicked little kid sobs, “That would be tooooo easyyyy”
He sees the beauty I’m doing things your own way and/or the long way.
He is also a little nut-ball and one of my favorite people.
But the sky is still the sky without you,
And I’m not surprised by that anymore.
stop apologizing for who you are
the people who love you don’t want an apology
and the people who want an apology don’t love you
Your mother will occasionally peek through the cracks of your door when you are sleeping, even now, to make sure that she can see the movements of your chest.
The boy who kissed you in the park last night isn’t in love with you, he won’t even stay, but he meant every second of those minutes.
You’ll walk a city street that your feet have never touched before and you’ll be terrified of getting lost and that feeling is what’ll help you find the way home.
You’ll give your money to a homeless man and he will hold your hand firmly between his and he will say ‘thank you so, so much’ and isn’t that something?
There’s a piece of music that makes your heart feel like it’s bleeding. Listen to it. Listen to it again.
When was the last time you paused to stare at night time?
Did you know that there is at least one person in your life who will jump in front of a hail of bullets for you, without your asking.
Your entire body is made of nerves. Feel things.
Take walks in places you’ve never been.
Take photographs of people not everyone considers beautiful. Find loveliness in them.
Let go of the things that are killing you from the inside out.
One day you’re going to be part of the sky, you’re going to be that beautiful and that necessary but not today. Not today.